Not two days ago I was feeling really good about things...feeling confident going into the Tiger Challenge. And now suddenly, my confidence has plummeted and I feel like everything I've planned and everything that I've been working so hard towards is all wrong.
I just don't feel ready.
And the shitty part is that whether I think I can, or I think I can't, I'll be right either way. And right now my mindset is can't.
What changed tonight?
ReplyDeleteI don't know. On my way home last night, I just found myself thinking about everything I need to remember and everything that I've been trying to fix, and that I should do this or that instead....and I just suddenly felt ill prepared.
DeleteI think when it comes to Kung Fu, it’s more about adaptability than being prepared. Our best laid plans or intentions can change, so to me it’s more about my ability to remain calm and not endure. Also, it’s just supposed to be a fun tournament.
DeleteAs I've been thinking about this more, I've realized that it's the board breaking that's in my head. I've built it up and there's this aspect of the "unknown" never having broken a real board. *sigh* I just gotta shake it off and let it go. If the boards don't break, so be it. On the plus side, they can sit and dry for a whole year. Lol
DeleteThis will be your opportunity to break 4 real boards. I’m looking at it as 1. A learning experience, and 2. A sort of rehearsal for the black belt testing. It’s an opportunity to try something and see if it works, or why it didn’t and focus in from there.
DeleteI love this attitude. I'm stealing it.
DeleteYou are without a doubt one of the most prepared people that I know. Relax and enjoy the day, you will do great.
ReplyDeleteThank-you Sihing. I appreciate that.
DeleteFor some reason it didn’t put my name in there, anonymous is Don Bjorkquist
ReplyDeleteI know it’s been said many times but keep in mind what do you really have to loose in this event, you can’t fail!
ReplyDeleteThis is my self talk for the next two days anyways !😉
Also, you feeling unprepared takes any illusion from me that I will ever feel ready for a demo or other event. Just saying😜
You are right. I KNOW this. Lol. Just sometimes that self doubt comes creeping in. I am feeling better today. And Saturday it will be so busy I won't have time to even worry about it. 😂
DeleteIt can help to remember hat boardbreaking is 100000% harder mentally than it is physically, thinking of it as a way to break a mental block rather than a physical board might help your approach, as long as you trust your training, and take care of the physics of it all, that board won’t stand a chance
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