It's been some time since I've had an official evaluation like that. And it was good to have Sifu give me some really personal feedback.
The biggest of which comes down to intensity. I think. I've got the technical part of things figured out. But I'm missing that piece of the puzzle that gives it real substance. If someone were to watch me, right now, do my forms, kicks, whatever....their thought might be "that looks really good". But what I want them to say is "Holy shit...I wouldn't want to get in her way". This is something that's been described to me as meanness with control. The "who's your daddy" concept.
I'm not sure how to tap into this within myself nor am I convinced it's something I have. I want to have it. But I'm not truly sure what "it" is or what "it" feels like.
Having said that, I do have a plan of sorts. I have a goal and a coach. I just need to formulate the plan and then start taking acton. I will define this better in the coming days/weeks.
On another note, I realized that today was my first, and only Brown Belt Class. No class next weekend (long weekend) and no class on the 21st (banquet). After that, it turns into the new Kao Shi (sp?) class.
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