Push-Pull-Pull-Push

I'm going to get this down because I want to have a record of it.

Push-pull-push-push-pull-pull.....

Honestly...I wanted to crawl in a hole that class.  It felt like everyone else was "getting it", and I felt lost.

Now, I need to clarify.  I get the push-pull concept.  I understand that my one is pulling back, while the other is launching out.  I understand how the pull actually makes the outgoing strike more powerful.  And when I think about my punch (such as in that type of drill we were focussed on) I tend to focus on the pull in...and that seems to enhance the punch dramatically.  Rather than just thinking "Me throw out fist.  Me punch". 

Where I got lost was when we were asked to ONLY engage the one hand.  The striking hand.  At least that was my understanding of the question.  And so in that regard, when I isolate it, yeah, I'm pushing.

Right from the start, I had a feeling that this wasn't the "right" answer.  But in an effort to remain true and honest...I just answered how it was in the moment and with my interpretation of the context.

When we were challenged to ONLY pull, I eventually started to feel it in that very last bit of rotation in my wrist/fist.  I could feel that pull in the snap.  But I also questioned that because it also felt like I was pulling back a bit, and not releasing.  So I couldn't understand how that could be "right".  In speaking with Sihing Burke later on, she mentioned that she feels the pull in her elbow more.  And I thought that was interesting and I can understand that and relate it to say, a vertical punch.  But still, I can't wrap my head around "pulling" the strike without pulling the strike.

Anyhow, here I am.  Still not too sure about anything.  I intend to let this marinate solo a bit longer before I seek out any help.  I feel like I'm close to something (exactly what I don't know) so don't want to stray from that quite yet because I think I'll lose it if I do.  It might even be something totally off topic...but still...it feels like something is just waiting around the corner on this one.

To finish this up and touch on the other topic of that class...I'm confident admitting that I'm just not there yet.  I'm also confident that I will get there at some point.