Failing Would Imply Trying

Today's meeting was really good for me.  It pointed a giant spot light at exactly where I'm failing.  Actually no.  Failing isn't the right word.  Failing is a positive thing and would imply that I was actually trying.  That's not the case here.  

There are a couple things on my personal requirements that I had completely removed from my list.  My super duper justifiable thought was "I'm injured and can't do these things".  Which is and isn't true.  Yes, I perhaps can't do them in the way I had intended.  But I can certainly revamp some things so that I'm still taking some steps forward and honouring the original spirit of the goal.  And here's the interesting part.  Everything else on my list I'm still doing....injury be damned.  I'm still working on my forms.  Still plucking away at the other numbers, even though many are physical.  I've had to modify before for my foot surgery, and other minor injuries, so it's commonplace to do that.  And so I thought to myself, why didn't I just find a way to modify these things too??  Why was it so easy for me to make an excuse?  And I think the difference with these was that one hadn't even been started yet...and I was only a couple weeks into the other that I hadn't even really formed a good consistent habit yet.  So it wasn't all that hard to push them aside and say "I'll get started when I am better".  Everything else is pretty established in my training and has been modified in the past.  So it wasn't even a thought to not keep going with those.  But these were new things....and to be honest, it really wasn't hard to make the excuse.  I almost welcomed it because it felt like an "easy out".

Yikes.  

So yeah.  This was a good shake up to get me thinking about how these things can look instead, for the time being at least.

As was said in the meeting,

The why is more important than the what.