It was Monday's class, March 9. We were working on Stick. The first 2-3 reps I was challenging myself to do the 360 degree power of the instep at the end. It was fine. I wasn't making it the whole way, but I don't normally. The next rep I recognized that I was getting fatigued. So I decided not to do the turn, but just jump up and down. And that's the one that did it. I'm not sure if I was half thinking of the spin, half not...or what. But when I landed, it felt like the lower part of my leg and the upper part shifted and overlapped at the knee. It was quite painful initially, but I managed to breathe through it and crawl (like the wounded animal I was) to the side. Immediately following, although I could weight bear, if I was at all slightly off centre, it felt like it wanted to give out on me. I ended up going to the ER that night, just to make sure there was no obvious damage. X-rays came back fine. I also follow up with my GP, who is sending me for an ultrasound to start. However, both of them, and I believe too, that there isn't any extensive damage that will require anything other than time to heal. It has not felt like it wants to give out for several days now.
I'm currently using a knee brace when doing anything in terms of training. I am doing my best to be vigilant and cognizant of any twisting and turning...but of course I'm not perfect. It's fairly easy to stay on task in my own training...easy on the stances, no kicking, no jumping, no pivots, etc, etc. It's a bit harder when you're teaching as you can get caught up in the moment when your main focus is no longer just on yourself. As I shared today in class, I tweaked it helping a student figure out her directions with the inside cyclone, spinning/flying outside cyclone, inside cyclone kick. I know that you all immediately envisioned me ACTUALLY doing the kick...which prompted all the eyerolls 🤣, but I promise it wasn't even close. Lol. Having said that, even though I was trying to plant my feet and remain stable while I showed her the directions, I obviously crossed a line and ended up turning more than intended. There wasn't any lasting pain, but I did hand over the rest of the class in order to avoid anything further. See?? Smrt. 😉
I will expect this to happen once in a while as I move through this healing process. Obviously, I don't want to go so far that I set myself back. But I also don't want to be so scared to test my limits that I sit in my injury indefinitely. And so that's the line I'm trying to maintain.
Having said all that, I have also been thinking alot about the things I can't do. Things that I have in my mind that I'd like to...but just can't. And we are always told to add that word YET. I can't YET. But is that truly realistic? Does everything get a YET? Or do some things just get the CAN'T? Since my bad landing, I've been thinking that MAYBE a 360 power of the instep might be one of those things that I just accept is outside my realm of possibility. I hate doing that...as I cringe to say can't or never...but at the same time...is it worth the risk? Or maybe it's just a change of wording. Maybe it's not that I take it off my radar because I can't...maybe I take it off because I shouldn't. Hmm....I can't decide if that helps me feel better about it or not.
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