Friday, February 27, 2026

Kao Shi

Tomorrow morning will mark the first ever Kao Shi class.  I'm excited and curious to see how this will look.  I know from a distant vantage point that it will likely look pretty much the same.  

A group of like minded individuals pursuing mastery.

A set list of requirements intended to help get us there.

But I'm also excited for the different opportunities that a smaller group might allow.  I see alot of potential and I think there are many things we can do a little bit different as a smaller group.

I'll end this entry, and start my year, by publicy sharing with you my personal requirements.

  • Hand Form - Da Mu Hsing
  • Weapon Form - Stick (personal form)
  • Weapon fight choreography with Toudai Vogt.
  • Repetition log for all forms (mostly school forms but also a couple of mine that I find valuable.  Marked with asterisk).  The intent is to ensure everything is, at a bare minimum, being maintained.  Min 1 per week, each.
    • Lao Gar
    • 18 Temple Motions
    • Long
    • Hung
    • Stick
    • Broadsword
    • Butterfly Swords
    • Spear
    • Kwan Dao*
    • Dou Ti* (hand form)
    • Fan*
    • Awakening the Dragon
  • Once a month baking/cooking with Emma and Nathan.
  • Meditation - Min 5 times per week
  • Stretching - yoga body hip opening stretching.  Min 5 times per week

Friday, February 20, 2026

Back To Tai Chi

With the changes to class structure and times in the new Kao Shi Intensive program,  I am able to accommodate getting back to the Tai Chi class.  Wooooo!!!

This week was my first class back and I was a little worried that I had left too much fall off my radar.  I was still practicing, but not the full long form, and not with consistency.  Overall I was really pleased how it all came (mostly) back.  I had to clarify a couple things...mostly with my left hand....but if I'm honest,  that left is always a problem in my Tai Chi....just a limp, wet noodle at times.  ðŸ™„

I had to laugh when half way in I was starting to sweat.  I have obviously not been working all those tiny little muscles enough.  And I felt really good dedicating that nice long session to energy work and really feeling the movements.  By the end of class my hands were vibrating.  In a good way!

So much good comes from the mingling of Tai Chi and our core classes.  And I'm so excited to be back.

Sunday, February 8, 2026

"Basic" Slide-Stepping

Something I’ve been working on recently is maintaining my centre and staying grounded, specifically during transitions. The focus was initially within my forms, but thanks to Toudai Vogt, I eventually shifted my focus to slide-stepping.

At first, I didn’t think basic slide-stepping was something I needed to work on, because I didn’t believe I had any issues with it. Eventually, her persistence made me question whether I might be missing something—or at the very least, it inspired me to do some re-evaluating (which doesn’t hurt to do every now and again, even with the most “basic” things). And so I was pulled into this by Toudai Vogt, and I’m grateful for it.

Working on something as “simple” as slide-stepping in a bow stance has offered a lot of insight. During our training, I was challenged to focus on initiating the step with my back foot. Once I did that—and did it properly—I realized a whole bunch of things.

I’m first going to attempt to describe how I was slide-stepping versus the adjusted version. Bear with me, as feelings are very difficult to describe and convey in writing.

Previous method - My forward movement was being determined by my front leg. I’d describe it as having my front leg act as an anchor point while pulling everything forward (maybe even launching my weight forward as well), then stabilizing everything over that front leg, maintaining my centre there, and finally stepping forward.

Adjusted method - In this method, the movement is initiated by my back foot. I release my heel and push forward, with everything immediately shifting forward together over the front foot. Then I step forward.

I had to chuckle while writing this, because even the descriptions suit the methods themselves. The first is still a little confusing and unsure, while the adjusted version is simpler and smoother. Sorry for the tangent—I just thought that was funny.

Anyhow… moving on.

Once I felt the second way, I realized a few things:

  • Although it was a very brief moment—a millisecond, really—I was definitely coming out of my centre. I was re-grounding very quickly and was fine again, but it was there. I didn’t even realize it existed until I experienced the movement without it.
  • I wasn’t using my whole body to shift and transition. My back leg was basically dead weight, doing nothing. No wonder I needed a bit of a launch.
  • That shift from the back is so important in maintaining my centre. The transition now feels smooth, and I feel grounded the entire way through.
  • I’m pretty certain that before I was reaching forward with my toes, whereas now I’m stepping much more assuredly with my heel. The distance I’m traveling seems to be the same. I’m not saying heel versus toe is right or wrong, because I honestly don’t know—but in this case, stepping with my heel just feels more assured.
  • I’ve applied this to my horse stance slide-stepping as well, and it seems to be making the same positive difference.
  • I’m trying to apply this to my kicks, and so far I’m seeing a positive influence.

This isn’t mine quite yet. I still have to think about it while practicing, and I have to take my time. But it will be mine eventually. Like I said, I’m seeing so many other places where I can apply this and continue to progress with it.

Sifu Brinker has also challenged me to take it one step further and apply it to my hip. I haven’t quite figured that out yet—but the seed has been planted.

Saturday, February 7, 2026

Just Not Sure

I was promoted on Monday for my 2nd Degree Brown.

It's been some time since I've had an official evaluation like that.  And it was good to have Sifu give me some really personal feedback.

The biggest of which comes down to intensity.  I think.  I've got the technical part of things figured out.  But I'm missing that piece of the puzzle that gives it real substance.  If someone were to watch me, right now, do my forms, kicks, whatever....their thought might be "that looks really good".  But what I want them to say is "Holy shit...I wouldn't want to get in her way".  This is something that's been described to me as meanness with control.  The "who's your daddy" concept.

I'm not sure how to tap into this within myself nor am I convinced it's something I have.  I want to have it.  But I'm not truly sure what "it" is or what "it" feels like.  

Having said that, I do have a plan of sorts.  I have a goal and a coach.  I just need to formulate the plan and then start taking acton.  I will define this better in the coming days/weeks.

On another note, I realized that today was my first, and only Brown Belt Class.  No class next weekend (long weekend) and no class on the 21st (banquet).  After that, it turns into the new Kao Shi (sp?) class.