I was actually doing my morning meditation. And I started to use my hands to play around with my chi a bit. As I did this I happened to find myself doing similar motions to our form. So I went with it.
I find Awakening the Dragon very difficult at times. When we do it in class, typically after some high intensity drills, I find that I can never manage to regulate my breathing to the form. I'm mostly going through the motions, because my breath is just too quick and irregular. So my harmonies are very disconnected...nonexistent to be honest. Other times I find that I am too in my head, counting the number of reps for each part, unable to really immerse myself into the form and utilize it in the way it should be. And I learned from this one particularly "perfect" repetition that the number is arbitrary. I wasn't counting and I couldn't even make a guess as to how many times I did each part. I simply moved on, and changed course, when it felt right.
In this particular moment, I just felt like everything came together. My breathing, my movements and my chi was all perfectly in sync. And I cannot say that has ever happened before. At least never to this degree.
I'm now trying to figure out how to apply these insights to other forms. Being an internal form, it will be difficult to replicate this in an external form like Da Mu Hsing, but I don't think impossible! I intend to start with some bits that, on their own, seem more internal, and then expand from there. I'm excited to see where this takes me.
